sickness in life

When people said that they are sick, what do u usually thought about it?
mm.. well a lot of idea are in people mind.
well,
i'm sick..
seriously, sick..
i can't move my left arm and left leg.
i always feel sad.
i felt really inferior with myself..
seriously what is worst than that?
i don't know what to say.
but what i know is that i've felt a big hole in my life.
is it that i'm not happy?
i have all siblings around me.
i have a person which is not my family who love me.
i dont really know the reason.
i think i know..
but to go back to the current situation take all the courage in life.
can i do it?
Ya allah, pls guide me.
show me the real path that i should choose.